Shadow of Subconsciousness

Friday, 21 July 2017

Strawberries and laughter


3 liters of strawberries, brownies, ice-cream, good food, movies (including Spirit!), geocaches, little bit of shopping in the city, warmth and rain, lots of laughter, YouTube, TV, cozy atmosphere and my dear big sister Sari. That's what my last sunday-wednesday was made of. Miss you already.


Saturday, 15 July 2017

"Why do you love writing?"

Almost all of us know how to communicate through talking or writing. Imagine art form which always walks hand in hand with you no matter where you go - so many have access to it, yet many don't even really see it. It's like an invisible art, melody which only some people have the skill of seeing naturally, and some seek to discover the paths to dive into it as well. It's in the atmosphere all the time, none of us can really escape it. Not that it harms anyone, really. I think it's quite peaceful as it is, but it indeed can be used in such a powerful ways. Single tones and chances of letters can mean so much; you can make it sound like a soft wave that's passing by, which makes you smile like you haven't ever smiled before, or like storming tidal wave with a thing that feels like an apocalypse riding on top of it. You name it, this art as any other has the variety. But it's true that it's been rumored that this art form even has thousands of languages to begin the symphony with.

What do you see, when you see letters?



tiny glimpse of my thoughts from wednesday-thursday night.

Wednesday, 5 July 2017

Helsinki Pride 2017



Last week's saturday was something special; I went to my 2nd (Helsinki) Pride event, but this was the first time I went as openly non-binary. Even wearing the nb flag around my shoulders (as far as I'm aware I was the only one with that flag)! This year was also the first year that the pride parade was streamed, which was really nice. I even found myself surprised by how many trans flags there were, it seems that people actually and even openly care about the trans law now (which warms my heart).

I was at the Pride with my little sister Nao, who I hadn't seen for ages. It was really nice to do some catching up and see that we still found ourselves laughing like we did at the old times. Overall had a really lovely day.



Thursday, 22 June 2017

Gamer, wha-?


On monday afternoon I headed to Helsinki, to meet brother and to do a little going around the city and + to hunt down external USB sound card thingy to plug my headset into, that I don't need to plug/unplug it every time I use it on PC. So, basically got my gamer gear a bit updated.



Also I was going to see Resident Evil Vendetta at 9pm! Even our cousin joined us on that one. I could say it's the best movie of all the three, at least it was freakin' amazing to experience at cinema - also it felt pretty cool that Finkino it didn't have subtitles, I truly felt like I was a part of the global day they only viewed it.

Also since Finland didn't get Resident Evil: The Final Chapter into cinemas, it happened to pop into shops at the same day, me and brother of course also watched that on tuesday. Not bad, I say. Now, again, I'm up-to-date with Resident Evil movies.

I also tried out Tekken 7 on wednesday with my all time favourite Yoshimitsu, which luckily as a character haaad gotten a bit better again.


But how are you going to spend your Midsummer? I'll probably build up a fortress to my bed and play this, long-awaited & hyped, which I was fortunate enough to pick up from the mail yesterday evening:


Wednesday, 14 June 2017

Night owl


It's been really nice to notice there has been nothing marked on my calendar for this or the last week. I can't actually even remember the last time I had so much proper spare time. With that I've totally lost the track of reasonable sleeping, but luckily "reasonable" is relative. I've found myself up near 6am without feeling tired at all, having the most amazing conversations long into the night. I don't think my brains have even allowed me to sleep properly, not that it bothers me, since I've just been so excited about everything. Losing the track of days and all that. So yeah, hello, it's 2 o'clock on the morning. Let me ramble a little bit. What I've been doing?


I've slowly continued my twitter header project which currently looks like this:


Abe so doesn't know.

Another social media thingy: I feel like I'm finally proper proud of my blogs - this and Henkäys. I think I've officially ran out of things to fix with the layouts (at least I quite like 'em). Now, the only thing I can make better is the content. The future looks bright.


I've also been enjoying Leo's June Juornaling Challenge. Generally makes me more active with traditional pen & paper setup, and which might be the coolest thing about it: my journal gets more sketching in it. The idea is pretty much to write 3 things down that you feel grateful for, and also answer to one single question, but the trick is that you do that every single day for the month of June. I can't believe it's pretty much half way done already, been so much fun to activate my brain cells to think with guidelines.

Last week I was also geocaching a bit more, even proper solved one geocache on the spot~ Such a activating thing to do; pleasant geocaching friend crowns it all.



I've been slowly and carefully re-organizing my living space, which is really exciting - it's a work in progress (but I gott to say right now it feels really upbeat). Upper back exercises are going reasonably well and all that. I also watched E3 streams with company, which ended up being really pleasant experience. There were even some games that made me really excited (e.g. A Way Out & The Evil Within)!

Also I just want to say that 3 days of rain has been really nice for a change, on top of the fact that my hay fever is gone, so I can actually smell the rain.. and oh, I can tell you; it feels amazingly refreshing. Summer is here, nature has become so green and beautiful~




That's my ramble for now, got my main thoughts out.
I hope you're having a nice week!